I had blood tests and went to my endocrinologist this week for a check up. Last time I went I was under a lot of stress and my health dipped significantly. The stress caused an increased attack on my thyroid by my immune system, creating fatigue and the symptoms of an under-active thyroid.
For three years, I’ve struggled to recover from burnout and to manage my resultant autoimmune thyroid disease. I’ve been striving to keep my thyroid functioning normally and trying to keep my immune system from destroying thyroid tissue. I’ve worked hard on my lifestyle and dietary changes to address stress and to avoid being on thyroid hormone. To date I’ve done well and the check up this week went great. My thyroid is working well, the immune attack is diminishing and my adrenal function is greatly improved. My doctor encouraged me to continue what I’m doing as it’s having a great effect. “Ten gold stars,” he said.
This translates to me feeling great and being able to do what most people take for granted. I can exercise, work a full day and still enjoy being with my family. For the past few years, that has not been possible. I still can’t run but I’m doing yoga a few times a week and I’m able to chase my dreams and still be a present mother.
This is the life I’ve been working towards for years and it feels great to be functioning normally. I guess there will never be a ‘normal’ me again as my life has changed so much that I can never go back to how life was before my illness. I think we often try to restore order to how things were before they broke, but maybe they were meant to break for us to reach a new, improved normal.
I’m different from how I was before burnout. I have perspective. I am more patient and I have created a life that’s much happier than before. Without that experience, I would still be working in a job that made me unhappy. My relationships would be unhealthy and I would still feel angry and resentful for how people are treating me. Now, my life is so much healthier and happier.
I source income from multiple places and I spend a lot of time networking and connecting with people who can help me to spread my message. I want to share my lessons with the world, to help others not to get as sick as I did and to reduce the suffering in the world in this way. I believe this to be my quest and I am passionate about it.
I’ve connected with some really interesting people lately and I’m excited about the talks I’m doing in the months to come. These engagements help me to spread my message and to promote my book. In the past few weeks, I’ve corrected a few glitches in the process of receiving funds from Amazon, my website is almost complete and I’ve corrected some formatting issues in my ebook. It feels great to be moving closer to a place where the logistics are in place and I’m ready to expand my reach.
I’m launching something new this week: workshops aligned to the principles in my book, Avoiding Burnout. It has been scary to do this because I’ve been afraid that no-one will show up. The numbers are small but it is a new beginning for me and it takes time to build a brand and to make a name for oneself. I have so enjoyed putting the material together and I can’t wait to see how it is received.
I’m excited to start working on my next book, Healing Burnout. I want to share the lessons I’ve learnt on this journey of recovery from burnout. People keep asking me about a follow up book and I’ve been hesitant to write it until I feel I’m at the point that I can say I’ve recovered. And of course, with a journey of recovery as long as several years, I’ve been concerned that I’m never going to get there. However with the results I received this week and the way I feel and operate now, I deem myself recovered. No-one else will be able to tell me that since I’m the only one who can feel what I feel.
I want to guide people towards more joy and if it’s one person at a time, that will do. I’m hoping my books, my talks and my workshops help people to bring more happiness into their lives. The quality of my life now is so much better than it was before I got sick. I actively worked on improving it and I believe that I can show others how to do this, without them having to become ill. My new normal is joy. I want that to be true for others too.